0.

No world, nor any screens to frame

The circle of the sight, where white

Would yield to white; the vacant

Stations of the Night let slip their shapes

And walk, like waves, away from fiction

And the truth.  Instead of speech, white noise

Of falling; instead of life, the blank enactments

Of the Sea.  Space opens up no faster than the speed

Of light, the superclusters’ incandescent web of foam

Birthing the air and the infinitesimal, solid worlds

And all their satellites of ice and stone, and pouring radiation

On the living and the dead, relentless,

Blasting one enormous sphere of fire forever, making days.

Making Light and Matter, making King’s Lear’s sorry hand.

 

1.

Microbes in the youth of it,

the math of it giving out shapes,

 

infinitesimals exchanging their commands, all

fetch and drop transactions in the other

dark atomic coins, empty filaments moving

 

chains of pivoting atomic hooks

magnified by water: spores,

motes disperse abroad,

configuring the local field:

tissues of billowy slime,

plumes of seed.

 

Then the breast of the world lay long in bed forever,

when great creatures happened. 

 

This or that came and moved and ended,

then fishes and the new.

Land came out and did what it is,

till on it all the forests full of them changing,

making it always from the previous time of the same.

Inland and out-to-sea.

 

2

The tortoise dives beyond the gray reef happy

Darkness sucking on the salty cold; makes

Deaf reptile progress through the deep by
Nosing forward, green gray and golden,

For caves, for fish, for seaweed, arbitrary

Scattering of excess energy, undetectably elated

Swims the repeating shape of the letter “S,”

Down and across the corridors between elongated

Wall on wall of reeds, glad of her liberty; listening:

“Hungry.  Alive,” says the heartbeat, “Hungry.  Alive.”

 

 

3

Think of it: maybe the cold arrives all at once, dinosaurs

Respond with teeth and claws and their usual murderous smile,

But it doesn't work that way at all,

            and the cold flows over and through them;

the dinosaurs' curving necks turn slow;

            ice heaps up the gaps between the crowded teeth,

the mouth of knives is spilt into the stone,

            black eyes curdle in the wind,

the green enormous scalp twitches in the dark,

            buckled jaws snap on air,

and crystals overwrite the blank forehead

            driven down and backward

in the white-light-flooded eyesight

            dotted with the bodies of the dead,

eggs frozen open, high hips creaking through the drifts

as they attempt to walk athwart the climate and escape,

            these dinosaurs, who swore to last:

their final fourteen seconds of the kingdom,

            the liquid red remainder of their blood

falls through the one heart,

            huge, three-chambered and misshapen,

the desperate alarm is gone, and all desire

            flickers into stone.

 

4

 

Swam we all duration of that hard

bright salty day, and then we came back out,

clams shifting underfoot down into sand,

the cold horizon blurred with spray, heard we

calling children floating cautious

hands entwined in mama’s hair that floated,

where these hot, diagonal ragged chains

of seaweed warmed the merging,

separate eddies and the clan beyond the long formation

pissing for the heat of it, was tired enough to drown

until the solid sand supported us.

 

6.

Here nothing happened.  Here we played fuck.

7.

Killed and decided to stop.

8.

Mountainsides, give up your frozen travelers

concealed below the stone;

Long year, revolve on us with gross disclosures of the Pliocene;

with leather limbs of refugees, with icemen, bogmen,

Pharaohs from the powdered dark,

Come back and talk.  About the death-world if you can,

 Or customs of the middle time, where records lapse

            and layers of the city’s stones illegible run red, obscured by fire.

If you can tell about the death-world

            hidden all year round under the corn, that would be best,

But if the best that can be wished is that we hear

your memories of Earth and dawn, well, that will do.

 

9.

Man lies down

in the forest

sleep holds him

in its colder hand

doorchimes of the underland
shiver faintly,

clatter of tiny bells

wind rings.

 

Called to the cave

by shade, the bear

turns in the granite

lip and stares at rain.

 

Past the mountains,

gulls raise

the brimming glass of air.

 

The ocean stands,

layers of the cold

folded houses

fish run through

rings of weight

pass their eyes

each cold meter

no sailor knows

the labyrinth career

each red mouth,

plying its magnetic thread

miles below.

 

Dolphins bark

in the dark sea

voices hammer

the pumice vault.

 

Sailor steers

spoked wheel
rudder hears

sea lion and anemone

keel enters dawn

sea-man walks

under mast-trees.

10.

Night

Up the beach, the light rolls outward

To the shore, in spectral houses on the air.

Stones dumb at the hill’s foot, sleep

Leaning in the spray.  Where the glacier was,

Gulls rip through the dark; where the great shelf

Breaks, ice weeps for its melting; rain,

For the fall. Over the moon’s false dawn,

Venus pours a resinous slow syrup of frozen gin:

Nostalgia, tremulous, vanishes and strikes.

Aeneas’ ghost on Dido thinks, and she thinks

Of Aeneas and weeps, and Ajax of Odysseus.

This one for that one weeps, and that for this.

Successive mornings flash, strobe light

On the hapless sail, bringing and seeing

The body’s ephemeral architecture everywhere,

Pillars and halls, great windows, flags, engines and terrible

Armed encampments, afflicted in November rain;

Bright names afflicted in disgrace, in sordid wars

And crass discovery, auctioned documents

And lies unnumbered as the sand.  Night comes on,

Accelerates the helpless resurrection of the dew;

Brings dim, cold homes to speak their single syllable

Of fire; marks with the black paw print one new day gone.

 

11.

For one dark bright fruit, our mother Eve

And Adam her brother husband were betrayed.

Juice was knowledge, ripe thick flesh was work;

Their human teeth tilled furrows in its starry skin.

One moment’s creeping liberty lost them bliss,

Brought them to sweat and tears, to plough and cradle.

Blossom and fruit and leaf melt into light,

Obscured by the turning, flaming sword

Imaginary, deadly as the storm of Heaven.

 

12.

Cyrus that rescued the Jews at the Great Book’s end is dead.

Emperor Xerxes grandson of Cyrus stands on the giant rock,

Surveying, from its height, the Persian army teeming in the plain;

Weeps for the souls within those glittering helmets down below,

(Sparks, alive and moving, where the officers at leisure in the morning camp

train, running and throwing and wrestling by the foreigners’ abandoned stream)

that in a century they will have perished, even if they win this war.

 

13.

In the two-wheeled chariot of bronze, the driver

stands in the shielded box of the driving stand

pouring his attention down the lane;

the cold air is full of wind and dust;

the mares are angry, then frightened, then angry again;

They go; they gather the rest of their spirit and run.

 

Up in the metal car behind the slender stand

the single man

leans to the eastern empty yard, shin by rail;

            away from the ditch, the noise

around the fig tree, weighing two ugly plans,

            pivoting, frightened but angry

(the spearman half-fallen-out, at the right wheel’s twisted guard)

the chariot comes on, tearing the day with light. 

14.

Jesus lying on the stone, unconscious, dead, unconscious, gone

In Trauma Room One.

 

15.

The name of it is death; the sword is Rome:

the road and the wheel and the power,

the taxes hammering for blood; gold burning

spectral in the space above the debtors’ prison-

yard where toothless clowns drag manacles

in circles till they die.  The city is airless.

Nothing can speak.  Caligula.

 

 

16.

Three men wise enough to get here on their own

Bearing some bath salts, pepper, and a box of cinnamon

Rap at the wicker gate in the fog. Regrettably, the Child

Is not at home, Mary explains to the tardy pilgrims,

Out of their element. He grew up already and did not get old

Before the soldiers got him. The story is too bitter for us now;

We never talk about it; goats are to be fed and butter made.

Joseph with his favorites in the little field walks all day.

Now come, have lentils at the long bench by the well.

Some other love than what you came to give is here,

You are to late and there was never any God, and all

That urgency and fame is come to this: hot stew,

The breezes in the tiny grove, that twisted horn.

 

17.

Scene of Instruction

“Madrigals pour from the stone

            when the stag steps by.”

Not true.

 

“Sometimes the rain runs in reverse,

            and droplets ascending to their Lord in tangled columns

regard the trees from above again and are glad.”

Not so.

 

“Often the fox will perform

            tumbling, and jugling, and beautiful speeches

of love and duty

 

for the departed Senator

                        who listens through the headstone.”

Oh.

 

18.

You learn in the commentary that Brunetto Latini

was a figure of great eloquence and learning

who taught Dante about the possibility of being saved,

and taken into Paradise at his death, and yet apparently

Brunetto was unable to avail himself of that teaching.

He also wrote a book, in verse, called The Treasure,

Il Tesore.  And he pleads, as scholars and artists will do,

With Dante: to preserve his memory by reading his text

propounding the name of his text in the upper world;

And getting people to read his book, called The Treasure.

This Dante does.

 

Florence is populated by a mixture of these people from Fiesole… whom Dante hates,

and Romans, who mix with them, and from whom Dante claims descent. 

Okay?  So the Florentine population has 2 parts,

the Roman part which Dante associates with the Emperor

and with God’s plan for humanity

(in which the Empire, Roman and then Holy Roman

is the engine of God’s justice and rationality upon the earth;

so Dante loves the Roman element in the Florentine

population, and he despises this other one,

blaming it for the sins of Florence)

And these Fiesolans who “shall become, for thy well doing,”

thine enemy.”  Because of the stuff that you did that was good

for Florence, they will hate you.

 

See Dante reconciling himself to his exile.

 

Florence is a “goat,” ravenous, or hungry,

for “the grass,” which is Dante, “too far away” from the goat because

the Florentines have exiled him.  Too far away

for them to be violent against him.

 

Dante the member of a declining aristocratic family resents “the new people,”

all these parvenus, new “gentlemen,” climbers, who through the merchant economy

with all its lending of money for interest, buying and selling on credit

have climbed from the ranks of the lower class into the upper class, and become genti;

The new genti, for Dante, “and their sudden gains, Have begotten in thee, Florence, arrogance and excess.”

 

19.

No one is truly humble who forbids himself every scrap of pride; it is hubristic to think   oneself capable of total humility.

Hence Luther’s severity with himself was really a kind of magnificent vanity, caused by

his forbidding himself pettier vanities.

The other Augustinians were neither all depraved, nor all fools, nor all wrong: but they    were all humbler than Luther.

 

20.

The ceiling shelters and obscures, John Keats.

The opaque walls, by keeping you, have split

your leaning figure into (a) suffering flesh and (b) reverie.  So,

forward on the cratered hill

the young mind walks and gazes, gazes and goes.

The hand of Death is resting in your pocket.

           

The window discloses and opens.

Everybody’s face conceals the psyche,

yet evokes the psyche too.  As we know,

emotion is life and it destroys.  Mood is sovereign over all.

Up the twig-vein flamingo leg the impulse flashes and flows

and this is poise, O Miss Brawne.

           

Nowhere now, Eohippus

the Paleolithic, diminutive proto-horse

can neither ride to battle nor be wild.

Where we lived when I was seven has become a vacant lot.

The last Great Auk was taken by fishermen in 1844.

This leads to the idea of some salvific elsewhere, to contain

all whose hold upon existence has been lost: say,

 

Night continuous, ice, gold.

Vapors ascending the banded gully,

then spilling horizontal toward the hills.

 

Maybe later, one of us will devise a way

to alchemize some blood for us, because

without it the dead shades like yourself

and me must wander chirping barking

and listening in shapeless darkness

trackless and walking to nothing.

            .

This is also for the women, not yet born

eventually walking on Jupiter’s Galilean moons

reading and settling a complete understanding

of World War One.

 

21.

Murder in the Ford Theatre and then

Unraveling months drifting outward

Into starless, cold black pitch, the ship in fog.

 

Johnson and then Grant down the great staircase;

up in winding smoke the old Republic

pours from the railroad lobby’s bright cigar.

 

No more war. Now, drunkenness.

Blacks free, to starve.  Part of the Union now

is that 300 mile by 60 mile

strip of charcoal, Shenandoah.

 

Ruined trains are burned; and crowds released

from prison, hospital, and war disperse

 

as when the sudden hail scatters the bees forever, all

the long-worked honey spilt; the queen down from disease;

the hive disbands.

 

22.

Alfred the Great

Tennyson stood in a Turner admiring the sunset.

He picked up his spyglass and regarded a distant boat

Drifting by the margin of the slate-grey sea, a flickering,

Discernibly oscillating catamaran.  Gulls about the lighthouse

Disturbed the poet in his meditation and he started.

Then he turned on his heel in the Turner and farted.

 

22

My Little Rilke

Circus animals have been the subject of much of Modern art.

Rilke, the silk-peddler, lube-man, cardshark

dealt that hand several times: aristocratic zoo dwellers

Came in for one or two adjustments to their axles; he gave free chiropractic,

He cut them a discount “personals” ad.  And why not.

Let me never knock the magician.  And I, too, dig it.

 

That panther makes you think.

C’mere, Snoopy.  Wanna drink?

 

23.

Popcorn (1916)

The kernels, saved from germination in the dirt

find themselves jumbled in the bag, no ranks, no rows;

like soldiers herded into barracks from the countryside,

unknown to one another, divided by their dialects and clothes;

not talking much the first few weeks, up there on the junk shelf.

 

A dream, before long, has set in, the time pooling and leaking and seeping on

from the kitchen windows for what seems like decades of blank quiet, but

then the oil appears beneath the falling kernels, and the pan:

Shared alarms, then singular immersion in the new,

then the old secret lost to the heat, so that no planting

ever, ever can go on, but after this reversal,

noise and exit and oblivion.

24.

Factory (1942)

 

The factory, whereto the aged horse is led, believing, believing

In the great warm barn

                        bedecked with oats and straw:

The young mares resting in its separate stalls,

The owl’s reminiscent sigh,

The crickets’ climbing, scattered family;

The honeyed sunset melting through the boards —

 

Up the closing distance of the road,

Enormous cylinders emerge from powder-blue foundations

            and escort to the sky

Converging streams of smoke, some white, some black.

 

The slow procession passes on its way

Stray hooves left blanching in the open yard

And teeth in ashes by the weeded rail.

 

O memory of fields,

And secret passages of flowers on the further slope;

O legendary speed of youth,

Ancestral, cold migrations

 

25.

Secret police everywhere drink their energy drinks.

            Giant ads depict cocaine, bright guns, artillery!

Pigeons that navigate the trees behind the wrought-iron gate,

            O dear folks out for air, whom I don’t know,

O cats in the trashcan, meowing curvaceous phonemes on the wind,

What will become of us?  (Oh,

And did your stripéd spouse come back, Melantho)?

 

The waste of life in ancient social crimes weighs on me somehow.

            This is about 1963.  This is about Hamlet the Elder and Claudius.

This about Watergate and who you can be. 1973,  y’see.

            This about my Dad and me.  This is about me and Usury,

Sure, because the Constitution says,

            CONGRESS ALONE SHALL COIN MONEY,

But they never do.  Rearmament is hurting my head; a zealous cretin

Somewhere is planning something lurid and mean and now the god damn

            History of breakage from the temples of Kennedy’s face

To the Parthenon’s almost denuded friezes melting in sulfurous rain

            To this actual hobo-guy’s shattered gallon of gin, comes in.

 

26.

Winged Rumor

Who rides the lightest coils of air, rides eddies, sighs;

            Rumor can swallow miles on the breeze your coat makes coming to the hook.

Who believed this, that Tropical Fantasy Cola came from the KKK,

            equipped with enzymes specially designed to sterilize the black man?

Who believed this, that the “Protocols of the Elders of Zion” is the proof

            of a real Jewish conspiracy to eat the world?

Spider eggs in the bubble gum, the U.N. landing on the Delaware River, guns ablaze

            (any minute now!), the deadly shoe of Kruschev on our heads,

While lead was really in the paint, asbestos really in the 6th-grade gym,

            gun-manufacturers really building a bright new future for the gravediggers.

All through the decades after World War II, guns were born every second,

           

All through the decades after World War II, cars were born every second

            Stocking the sweet, secret lyric of force

Sung through the cold Aegean of these States by the wayward, brave Ulysses.

            Look out: look out: look out.

As if.

 

27.

Not the Center, Either

Salutations, Nation of Li Po! Salutations, Great Brightness in the dawn!

Prodigious mastery of the wooly Tao and the smooth Tao,

the Yangtze dammed and the undammed old Yangtze alike,

Get on your olive-green bike!   

Salute the mighty, magic-elephant PENIS of CHINA!

Exclamation-point of lightning bolt!  Export-impressive dynamo!

            Elephantiasis-BIG-PENIS-of-proud-Empire-Land!

Fountain of 1940’s rhetoric! Food is magic.

            Now that Tibet is no more, we can sleep at night.

Nuclear test GOOD for soil.  Earth last forever.  Say so in book.

 

28.

Grendel turns over in the deep cold water.

Bobby, Cubby, and Annette

            what dragons sheltered your white limbs in coils!

Real and ravenous, the scarlet blob expanding on the map

            in Civics K-12

Stalin’s stain of terror spreading through the past

            wherein you wore those mouse-ear hats.

Real and famished for the globe,

            the red blob becomes the Disney-Dragon’s wings;

His tail pierces the clouds, his teeth are spears;

            states, countries, monuments go down

before his charge.  The round black ears eclipse the sun.

 

29.

Utopia

Still there is the sunrise and the snow;

            black chestnuts thicken on the orchard-trees somewhere,

Garnering fills the shed with wood, the wall with stones.

            Still someone gathers twigs in the invisible reaches of the snowfield,

In the always elsewhere fantasia of the righteous life expanding episode.

            Cider making, ceramics, the long-term storage of corn.  Midwifery.

The care of horses and their foals.  Orchard keeping, canning.

            Then Sancho Panza turned to the Don and said, “your fly is open.”

 

30.

Prices boom and tumble down the day.

Dostoevskian approach to the hard day goes awry.  Disgraced man

Returns to the ballroom and turns a step on the empty floor.

Russian engineers dance on the threshold of the hidden room

On taxi dispatch duty, and no air circulates from there into the booth;

No candy-cane comes through the radio to feed the monster, boredom.

 

31.

A student on his year, a suffragette at cards, a fly, all stare

Into the only thumbnail in the universe, white and red again,

Shifting blood into the spot.  Privacy, hard-on, linoleum.

Edna Saint Vincent Millay, hard-on, privacy.

Not for refreshment, but the proving of some damned

Insistent point of honor all imaginary.  Oratory for the floor itself,

Oratory for the walls, utopian proposals raining on tiles and paneling.

Bunny Wilson brought a pitcher of Martinis up from Princeton,

And made the introductions: Loneliness, this is Hand; Hand, Penis;

Penis, I believe you know Come; Come, meet Handkerchief;

And Handkerchief, you remember Hand.  Let’s have a highball.

 

32.

Rebellion mounts the battlements and fades.

The head-sized patch of white

Hovers in the photograph, behind the fence.

Badgeman, miasma, napalm. 

Pity the fat heart stalling in the Cold War.

 

Hell is a zone beneath the foundations, sanitizing them with its separateness and supporting all from beneath, in its solid shell. 

 

33

Add Two Rilke Poems and You Get The Zapruder Film

 

“We cannot know his legendary head,

With eyes like ripening fruit…

the dark center where procreation flared”

 

plus

 

“Washing the Corpse” 

 

equals

The damned umbrella

Spreads and you feel a few autumns’

Cold rain crashing on your throat and shoulders,

The brightdark steep intrusion, sordid

Lurid ravenous injustice leaping from below,

Life rushing up and out through Dallas, Mexico City,

Havana, Miami, Saigon and Chicago.  Wind, sun,

Oak leaves, quietly tossing, dashing.

 

34

Tis given out….a serpent stung me….thus is the whole ear of Denmark rankly abused. 

The serpent that did sting thy sovereign’s life now wears his crown.”

 

LBJ, you often took a shit in the presence of a United States Senator.

You often asked the gentleman from Michigan, or some other one

To swim with you, and you swam nude, and they cringed and you smiled.

Don’t think a few decades will be enough to let it all blow over.

Every American who can read beyond the high school level

For the next one thousand years will hate your filthy Texan guts like Nero

And Justinian, like Peter the Great that throttled his own son,

Because you sold the world from under everyone and made

Sad faces in the mirror when it came back broke.

 

 

35

Nobody anymore, oh Lord, swing low.

That’s who plays touch football now at Hickory Hill.

 

Beneath that other hill in Arlington, the public may

Leave flowers as it likes; a Jew might place a pebble.

 

36.

Angie Dickinson!  Meanwhile, Holsteins dump methane up to Sputnik.

Edsel and Corvair!  Meanwhile, ten thousand thousand chickens piss

Constituents of ammonia up the corridors of air, to rip the sky

Right out from over the coiffed and kerchiefed head of the one and only

Lucille Ball!  Who snacks on a lovely meal of porkloin made from

Half-ton sows that coat the wall with blood on slaughterday.

 

37.

There walks a specter on the American night, all right?

More lonely than the moons of Mars, twin sterile boulders

Tumbling in the void; a ghost of youth in black and white,

Another ghost behind him gesturing, transparent, like

Film frames scratched and overexposed, the confiscated

Cipher of bright splashing Dallas sunshine in a can,

That Regis Kennedy — no relation, irony galore — stole,

And put it in his pocket.  The pair of brothers falls

Down deep into the vault of what is gone, and death

Colder than the fishes of the sea, upon his head and neck

Chained in the purgative flames of his florid natural sins

His Catholic heart effulgent on the dark, galloping to a halt,

To vault no more the miasmic welkin of the capitol’s dark winter.

Slack reigns idle on the unmanned animal; the famous horseman

Gesticulating, gasping through the ancient neckwound, distantly

Thin shimmering image of distantly speaking lips, repeating something.

 

38.

For me this gap of 5 years between 1963 and 1968

Is what Bowie was referring to in the song “Five Years.

 

39.

The moment his head hit the floor of the Ambassador Hotel,

Miles away from that tiny square of death, Nixon became

Too strong for his surviving sad opponents, and the flame

That would incinerate the hopes of Edmund Muskie and the rest

Began to lick the walls of our unfinished dreamhouse.

 

40.

Good intentions on the New Frontier persist,

Like prehistoric plants, fossilized, eloquent

Fronds declaiming silently urgent taxonomical details

With gravity and dash, lifeless, radiant, over with.

 

Peace Corps and utopian social longing, garrulous, last

Expansive, petrified emotional stains up time’s sheer wall,

Like fern leaves in the unscalable sedimentary

Canyons of the continent’s uprooted heart, great

Shining impeccable constellations elsewhere,

Urgently waiting for something gone forever.

 

Traces of ethical moments gather on the windshield, accumulate

Pollen, heaping yellow onto August in loud, prodigal drifts .

After the inaugural snows had steamed into the clouds

And animals on newsreel film in zoos before your time

Had long since lain down in the dust, anonymous,

The courtiers found greener pastures, packed their bags.

Consider the President’s photograph; the chair they threw away.

Consider him turning, in the Garden, on his famous heel.

 

41.

Somehow it is mine, your fat story.

I have no money.  You did it all.

Before I was born you are dead,

And at one layer of the gone world

You are seventeen.  In between

The honey and the hemlock, fall

The shadows of the Graces on your path;

Furies, Eumenides, traces of ancient youth

And age, like ice beneath the earth,

Roots it to oblivion like the moon.

 

42.

If you have a time machine and you visit a museum in the future

and the Tyrannosaurus Rex has a plaque under it that says

“Super-double-plus Pre-Nixon,” you might want to get back in the time machine.

 

43.

Lime or, Oxymoron: The Educated Consumer (after Adorno)

Picking out which of the limes in the grocer’s basket is the greenest, the ripest, the worthiest, you finish off the thousands of man-hours that went into making them all identical.  Agribusiness has taken the three stages of planting, harvest, and distribution and added a fourth, namely the struggle to erase every difference between the specimens.  It has done so precisely because mass-market produce is aimed at a faceless public of interchangeable consumers, who have forgotten both the variety of nature and the possibility of living a unique life: and you need to pretend that one of the limes is perceptibly better than the others, because those limes in the basket are eerily reminiscent of the milling crowd in the store — that greenest, ripest lime is you.

 

44.

Politically Useless Snowflake Epiphany

The sparrow-falls at the antipodes show up in the sudden dream, explained;

the unique snowflake in the obscurest island, harried in the random breeze

unfolds its glistening cold equations to the sailor at the ship’s spoked wheel,

drifts across the spyglass’ disc of white light floating in its pitch black tube and is revealed.

 

45.

 

Maybe I should just regress, reoccupy a warmer spot if I can find it,

Reclaim some swathe of my old landscape, go back and try again.

I used to think that Hart Crane’s ghost, for instance, could avail itself

Of my regard for him, to benefit in some great elsewhere or appear

Right here.  He never did and pretty soon I had to let that go.

 

Maybe I could take some illicit spiritual hike up a better hill,

And hypnotize myself into believing God is real, and people

All immortal for their good or ill.  If I remember right,

Those were the two unscalable cliffs I pretended to bestride

That disappeared when I woke up.  Unfortunate this

 

Metaphysics going nowhere, this ethics floating on nothing,

Local aesthetics and an uncaused explosion.  Wise is what

I’d like to be, under the volley of circumstantial gravel,

Birdshit of rejection, and the proud man’s puke contumely

Staining my marooned preposterous dinghy’s torn sail.

 

In 34 years I broke some eggshells and my assbone when I fell.

Whitman I was a sucker for; I did like Wilfred Owen and made

“Pilgrimage” to Keats’ House in Hampstead Heath,

Though I grew up in Hempstead; worshipped Shelley, had a thing

For Dylan Thomas and went screwball for Berryman and Schwartz.

 

Lost in organic ailments of the brain these guys and I spoke

Though I was doing all the talking and it wasn’t much to write

Home about.  Talking to the wall, my little hands folded,

Using Jimi Hendrix for a ladder to the stars, while secretly farting,

I told myself the great unknown was room enough for angels.

 

Maybe if I dipped my head in